I have been fully aware of the fact that I am having a baby sometime around October 25th. I haven't been nervous and when I thought about the delivery process it didn't freak me out at all. Well, I officially started to freak out yesterday. I'm not sure exactly what happened. I was in Austin on Monday talking to people at work and telling them how I feel great and I'm not really nervous at all. I also was just telling my sister on Saturday how the delivery process does not freak me out at all.
I HAVE DECIDED I WAS IN DENIAL THIS ENTIRE TIME!!!
I became uncomfortable yesterday and really started to feel pregnant. Then, it hit me...I will be birthing this baby. It really hit home when I saw a friend of a friend's blog. Her little girl was due one month before Chase. Now she has a countdown on her blog. Only 14 days until her c-section. Holy Crap! If I am doing the math correctly (which I think I am) that means I have one month and 14 days left!!! I am really going to have this baby! So many thoughts came rushing through my head. Will it be a c-section? Will Chase come early like his BFF/future wife, Jade? Will he weigh as much as Justin (10lbs,13oz)? What will he wear home from the hospital? What will Justin and I wear home from the hospital? You know we have got to coordinate!
I know it will all work out and that once I see Chase's little face everything else will pale in comparison.
On a totally different note, I have my countdown in my head until I move. It could be as early as the weekend of the 13th or as late as the 27th. We hired my replacement yesterday. She comes in at 3pm today to begin training. I am so excited!!!
Also, in case you were wondering, I did have a really cute outfit picked out to go home in but I am wearing it to both my showers. Justin (aka my fashion expert) explained to me last night that I would be wearing the same outfit for 3 different occasions and that when Chase looks back on pictures on day he will think his mom only had 1 outfit to wear during the entire pregnancy. Ahhh, what is a girl to do?